I'm flustered.
I'm fragile.
I'm desperate and I'm angry.

I just can't do this anymore.

By
grace you have been saved, through faith -- and this not from
yourselves, it is the gift of God -- not by works, so that no one can
boast.-Ephesians 2:8-9

"The only person who knows my true worth is God.
God is not influenced by any past failures or successes. And God does
not regard what others think of me. God alone knows exactly who I am,
and the unbelievable fact is that God still loved me enough to allow
Jesus to die for me. My heart is full of inexplicable joy at this truth."

I tend to have issue with self-worth. I'm sure this goes for other people as well, but I can dole out compliments all day long but if someone were to send one my way, nine times out of ten I just brush it off, thinking to myself that they didn't really mean it or that it really wasn't true. I can't explain it...it's just how I work.

It is comforting to know that, despite what I or others may think my worth is, God has a totally different view. Yes, sometimes I disappoint him and do things that aren't to His glory, but that doesn't mean I'm tarnished in His eyes. Lately I've been shown some things in my life that need tweaking. Some need cleaning...and others needed to be trashed. I've been trying to get back on track and am glad God actually showed me what was going on in my life. I've never been able to actually witness Satan weaseling his way into my life. I had prayed at camp to actually be hungry for God...to want nothing but more of Him. It's a work in progress but it's something I'm actually going to pursue. I'm pushing aside any idea of dating right now so that I can get my act together. Any prayer would be greatly appreciated. I have a feeling this semester will be slightly interesting...and not necessarily in a stressful way.

*points to first picture*
yes. it's a gift.